My pastor shares our confessions with his wife, myself and other members of the church.?

Hi, I'm a friend of misty's i'm here with her. I have a question.... My family goes to pentacostal apostolic church it use to be great. I've just returned to church after 13years i'm now 26, found out that my pastor shares our confessions with his wife, myself and other members of the church. Its caused alot of trouble but he no one is game enough to confront him about it. At a meeting i found disturbing was my pastor & church leaders were boasting about the more ppl we bring the more money we make! Isn't it the more ppl we bring the more ppl we save?? I wanted to share my experiences of what God had done for me but after returning back to that church I'm totally confused. Preachings at church was about living according to how God wants us to and to help encourage and grow through his teachings and so forth... He said to follow the examples of some of his strongest leaders and their families in the church for growth & stability. All i've seen and heard from them is negative backstabbings/slanderings bout other members and their families. I've always spoken to him in private when i'm confused or when i'm troubled in the church, he to continues to share about each individuals confessions and how he thinks they are stupid. It's unbelievable! They mock what ppl wear, looks, disabilities and everything. Even though they do all that you would never guess it when you see and meet them, its as if thats the type of attitude we need to live happier. I can't do those things and trust me i have tried and it don't work for me.. I have a conciense. Is it possible that by backstabbing/slandering and all that stuff will it help to get a head in life or gain respect and friends??? Is church and God not all about saving souls but a profit business to live more comfortably. I've left the church now, my pastor and the members have given me a bad name because of it, he's very close with councils in my area so when he hears i've been offered jobs through councils or his friends, I then don't get the job. I don't look at christians the way i use to. I hardly read my bible since all that happend, I don't want to be a christian if it means i have to have that attitude like my pastor and the members in his church. When i went back to God on my own accord i felt as though he saved me from my miserable life, I was only able to survive in that church for almost 1year by keeping focused on God and his teachings in the bible but eventually i wasn't strong enough, i got confused then frustrated and left!