Confused about this boy..?

im confused about this boy name cory who i used to like in 5th and 6th and sorta like him still now and im confused if i still have feelings for him..i mean me and him been threw alot we used to be reallyy tight friends in 5th and then i started liking him which ruined everything..but after we movved to middle school i still liked him and during recess he asked me if i still liked him still and i was all EWWW thts soo last year and stuff..and all my friends were embarsing me so i ran away and then ppl were telling me he wanted to ask me out and soo i was sooo depressed and after a 2 months i asked him out and then he said maybe and then no after tht ...we stopped talking in cl cuz hes mostly a cool kid but then we started flirting more in the year but he found this othr girl who he started hanging out with which is emily but they say there only good friends but it seems like there going out cuz hes always holding her hand and hugging her and this year school started we have no cles togethr and we barely talk now but he stares at me in the hall way and i reallly want to go out with him but i doubt it cuz hes like cooler this year and plus i asked him out alott during 5th and 6th like my friends would ask him a million times which is annyoing